I felt horrible after my speech ended. I only have myself to blame. Not giving myself more time for preparation. I always thought public speaking, or speaking in front of a crowd is something I am not afraid of. But after how I performed today in front of my class, I have lost all confidence in speaking to a crowd. I was…

• Trembling – very obviously people could see I was shaking!
• Stammering – “Err“, “Ahh“, “Ermmm“.
• Tried too hard to not want to look at my script that leads too…
• Blank out – For a couple of times I could not remember what I need to say!
• Unnatural – Which I think is because…

I chose the wrong topic of speech to present on. My speech topic I chose was “You are to give a valedictory speech at the graduation ceremony.” I was actually confident to do it after attending my ITE graduation ceremony, which was why I picked this topic. But I realised I done so badly and not a topic for me because I am more of a speaker who cannot stand still and prefers to speak whatever that comes off my mind – kind of like impromptu. I was not able to stand still during my speech and worst yet not remembering what I needed to speak.

I am very disappointed with my performance today knowing my grade for Public Speaking module will no longer be an ‘A’. And as I mentioned above, I have lost confident in public speaking and no longer want to do it again if I am not force to.

Thanks to my friends like Benjamin, Denise, Yie Yng and Rachel who kept on encouraging me. But at that point of time, none could bring me a smile. Until I received on SMS from Malaysia. I shared it with Lee Xiang too and her one reply brought me a smile. Nonetheless, thanks everyone!

I told you I was addicted to Meiji – Poifull jolly beans right? Today I went to 7-Eleven and bought another 5 boxes making my total collection of 6 boxes! Can last me for the whole of next week!

Enjoy your first weekend of December!

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